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1a. Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
From: Amy Jacobs
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1a. Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
Posted by: "Amy Jacobs" givemeabreak_dfw@sbcglobal.net givemeabreak_dfw@sbcglobal.net
Date: Fri Mar 5, 2010 2:20 pm ((PST))
Hey Ladies,
So good to hear from some people … Well, let's just say that it has and still is hard for me. I am still eating crap, I still feel like it is out of control at times. The one thing that I can say is that I am working out & doing a boot camp 2 days a week here in Dallas ( kicks my butt ) , I started to run last week after I did my first 10 k (6.2 miles) at a event in FT. Worth TX. I really like to run and it feels great being only 150 lbs from 245ish. It's like nothing that I have ever experienced and I know I can do it!!! It always was so hard even when I ran a ½ two years ago at 230lbs.. Ya, know I never weighed before I went to surgery, dang it… yet loosing the 110 sometimes feels like I am still 240is at times… the only thing that tells the truth is the scales and all the small clothes that fit when I put them on and going to any store and being able to find something right away that fits, instead of scrolling for those higher number that they never had .
I can eat junk and I never feel like I get full, but when I try to eat a meal I can only eat my 4-8 oz and I am ok, but it's the sugar that never fills me up that way… dang it L I honestly think that it is all emotional, you know we spend so much time being overweight, struggling with our emotions, boredom and NO self-worth and NO self confidence that it's all too easy to let our sub-conscious mind just kick in. I never craved any of the things that I crave now after the surgery for 7 months and I wish I could go back. However, remember it was a mindset of the journey that we were starting. Now that I / we have lost the weight… now what? Ok, I am thin now…. I got here, I did it…. congratulations to the smaller sizes the attention that we are getting, I can't believe that you lost 100 lbs or whatever that magic number is for you and people start talking…. Now WHAT????? I am asking myself in this exact moment where I am going with this that I am sharing with everyone, not sure… Yet I am full in this moment from eating some stupid ice-cream dots and I feel like I am sharing how my body and feelings are right now…. GRINN
YA know, I reached out this week to a counselor that does weight loss counseling and supports people in losing weight, keeping it off and the emotions that go along with it all, laid it all out on the line and interesting that she called me 15 minutes ago and has agreed to work with me until they are approved to take my insurance. I know that I need help…. Even with the support group that I can reach out too, it doesn't stop the crazy emotions that drive me to EAT CRAPPPP that doesn't support me in my journey ~
Some say writing it down works for them, not for me… I could write down that I ate the ice-cream and say… ok, I will do better tomorrow. I don't want to go back to 245 lbs ever again so I try to focus on one day at a time, sometimes it's one minute at a time. The one thing that I do know is that If I keep my word to myself with everything that I desire to do and do it…. I feel great and keep up the good work and don't mess up, yet the minute I mess up… it's on ! It is easy to forget in those moments of breakdown, how great I feel about myself and how confident when I go out in my hot looking jeans or sexy black dress and heals… it's like it all goes out the window… Yes we have to control the "sugar Monster" yet our minds are so powerful, that whatever we FOCUS ON THE MOST happens. In the beginning we were so focused on loosing the weight that nothing else mattered, right ? Well… hummm… how can we continue to "eat healthier & healthier every day in supportive ways " Cool new mantra that I just made up (close to the one that I have below) now that we have lost the weight so that we stay on the right path!!! I scratch my head wondering this as well… I guess it's being ok with being / feeling happy & confident in ourselves…J
Yes, I understand that we KNEW that this was a "life changing " experience that we were made very clear of when we went to our intakes and some of us had to go to psychologist / shrinks / classes… As I did and I knew what I was signing up too. HERE IS THE DEAL… for me, I dealt with the weight… yet I still haven't dealt with all the emotions that keep me eating and that is why I have reached out to a weight management counselor who will support my sphyc.. by teaming up and we all working together. Sometimes I think that I was given a gift that millions of women can't get or are scared to get … and when I abuse it, I am taking away from them. Know what I mean ??
I had just happened to be sitting here feeling like crap and I am excited that I saw this email and could share with you… I hope that I didn't lose anyone; so sound crazy / lost …maybe some of you understand where I am coming from. I wish that the sugar & fat count made me sick…. However I will not give up on myself and the success I have made of the weight loss, I will keep doing the best that I can and work to just go one day at a time… Just one day… Maybe I need to narrow it down to 1 hour or 2 hours at a time… that honestly seems easier to me right in this moment… I can put a BIG SMILEY on the calendar for that day and a star * for the exercise that I did…. Maybe you can too !!
Be proud of your accomplishment and be ok with "what is" 2 mo, 6mo, 1 yr, 2, yrs etc… Is small amount of time compared to the YEARS THAT WE CARRIED THIS PROTECTION AROUND OUR BODIES… SO BEING OK WITH WHAT IS, IS what I am also working on too and I would encourage you to do as well… We have to be honor ourselves daily…. HERE IS MY MONTRA…. " I AM SKINNIER & SKINNIER EVERYDAY IN HEALTHY WAYS" I have it on my phone as a screen saver , everywhere… I am also working on the 20min rule… Didn't work so well today, however… staying conscious in the moment always works for me.
I am really good at supporting & encouraging others, I suck at doing it for myself.!!!
"Weight loss Rocks" It's two piece season is what I keep telling myself !! J thank you for letting me share!
Let me know where you are too, as we all are on the same journey and are not perfect and sharing all our emotions, successes and accomplishments is ok… Being vulnerable and sharing what is "true" for each of us, might just support others to accomplish their goals ~
With Passion ~
Amy
Wls/ 250 Now … 149ish (pending on the time of day)
Amy Jacobs, Owner
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From: afterweightlosssurgery@yahoogroups.com [mailto:afterweightlosssurgery@yahoogroups.com] On Behalf Of AlLee Watkins
Sent: Tuesday, March 02, 2010 11:26 AM
To: afterweightlosssurgery@yahoogroups.com
Subject: Re: [After Weight Loss Surgery] Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
I had a gastric segmentation in 2000 (very similar to banding - just not adjustable).
I was 301 and lost to 145. I maintained this for about 2 yrs. Then I got comfortable and started gaining also hit 30 (I do believe this slows down weight loss). The most weight I gained is up to 195. My comfortable weight is about 170 (I'm 5'7").
I was very discouraged when I tried to loss weight the second time and it did not come off like after the surgery. Now losing weight is like before the surgery. I really have to work at it. I have to watch what I eat, count calories, and exercise. After the surgery, it seemed as if the weight just fell off ( I really didn't have to put alot of effort into it).
I still have cravings. I will sometimes overeat. I have all the same issues as before but I don't let it get our of hand. I am more aware of my body and when I put on weight. I try to make immediate corrections when I start gaining.
I hope this was helpful for the new surgery/weight loss people.
AlLee
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From: krsandahl@aol.com <mailto:krsandahl%40aol.com> <krsandahl@aol.com <mailto:krsandahl%40aol.com> >
Subject: Re: [After Weight Loss Surgery] Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
To: afterweightlosssurgery@yahoogroups.com <mailto:afterweightlosssurgery%40yahoogroups.com>
Date: Tuesday, March 2, 2010, 3:08 PM
I am only two months out but very interested in the reponse to this. I too am worried about the long term success. I don't want to ever go back to where I was....
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From: Sara VanMullekom <SaraVanM1@charter. net>
To: afterweightlosssurg ery@yahoogroups. com
Sent: Mon, Mar 1, 2010 12:42 am
Subject: Re: [After Weight Loss Surgery] Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
Hi Amy, how are things going,, my story is starting to sound a lot like yours. You posted in January the sugar monster and you discovering you can eat sugar and fat without dumping. I'm there now too. Surgery was June 25th 2009 I have lost all the weight I need to I'm size 4-6 which is great but I'm scared I will gain it back. What's going on now. Sara
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From: Amy Jacobs
To: afterweightlosssurg ery@yahoogroups. com
Sent: Tuesday, January 05, 2010 9:01 AM
Subject: RE: [After Weight Loss Surgery] Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of WLS
Hello everyone - congratulations to everyone on your WLS success! I am
down 85lbs since I had my SLEEVE ON June 3, 09. It feels good squeezing
into a size 6-8. Never thought that I would ever be there. I have had some
challenges over the last month and need to know how you all OR if anyo
has had this happen to them and HOW THEY / YOU SWONG BACK.
THE bottom line is that I am eating sugar and sweets, I actually went thru
the Taco Hell drive thru 2 days ago to get a 89c burrito. I only ate some
of it, because it was all I could eat. (small pouch) It's like that carb
monster that everyone talks about. Except mine is the sugar monster. My
big down fall is chocolate and junk- just like it used to be before my
surgery. I would just eat, board or not board; usually at home though.
Here is what I haven't done correctly is drink enough water and some days I
am shy on the protein. It's like I am out of control on some days, and some
days not.
I HATE that my body / mind discovered that it CAN go over the 10 g of sugar
& 10 g of Fat with OUT dumping. I feel like I am failing all over again - I
have been steady at 155 since Nov 24, but no weight loss and no work out- I
feel like my old self again and this is not what I signed up for - for the
rest of my life (one day at a time though)
Has anyone went through this and was able to swing back into the game again
? I know that I am not alone and I do plan on staying at the weight that I
am at - would like to lose 10 more .
I know if it's to be, it's up to me. yet I keep struggling and I do have
this fear of being discovered out there by men and being safe... I have been
single for the last 5 years and was protected by my weight. I know that it
is also a behavioral thing as well, I know what I know. I just want to know
that it's ok and it's just a phase. I do 80 g of protein on most
days.Bullets, Simply Whey and the new Julian Michaels protein shake which is
awesome. I double up on it as it only has 15g of protein, but it rocks !!!
I find it at Walmart.. Just tired the Pure Whey vanilla and it's great too,
has 52 g of protein.
Well, thanks for listening.
Wls/ 250 Now 155
Happy New Yea!
Amy Jacobs, Owner
Give Me a Break, Personal Errands & Concierge Services
www.givemeabreakcon cierge.com
214-529-2641
"In a world where the big things have little difference - it's the little
things that make a big difference."
- Peter Thomson
From: afterweightlosssurg ery@yahoogroups. com
[mailto:afterweightlosssurg ery@yahoogroups. com] On Behalf Of brightangelhope
Sent: Thursday, September 24, 2009 8:42 AM
To: afterweightlosssurg ery@yahoogroups. com
Subject: [After Weight Loss Surgery] Re: 6 Month Update & comment on fear of
WLS
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